Awake

It seems as if the only posts I put up these days are posts saying how long I haven't posted. The lack of words is really hurting my blogging in the most obvious way: not blogging at all. The time that pasted by since the last blog entry is a complete blur, with the usual school assignments, job/work search, and online episode-watching marathons. For a week or two now, it seems like life has finally settled down a bit, and I can finally take a long awaited breather.

Has it ever occurred to any of you out there, that certain milestones seem really significant, and deemed to be life changing, until you actually get there? It seems to bother me, especially looking back to those certain expectantly significant effects, that when it's over, all you're left doing is a huge "Huh? That was it?" kind of feeling. I've begun to realize that I've gotten to the point in my life where saying I'm still in school sounds just plain silly, and I've gone from saying I have homework to do, to having assignments, to thinking even the word assignment gives off a somewhat childish vibe. At the same time, hearing myself say "I have to go to work" just seems surreal and a bit overstated like a child preparing for a school play and claiming they have to put on a performance.

So I've concluded that I'm in that awkward in-between phase, like the one that you're only supposed to experience during teenage puberty. Like my limbs are too long, but I'm still too young to wear the right sized clothes, because those clothes just seem too old.


Many of you might be wondering what have set off this random rant, and yet I've asked myself this many times as well as I'm writing this. Between working days on end for a project that only really sums up to around 50 pages that look like a childish creation, trying to convince a panel of judges not to fail me so I can move on to presenting my work at an exhibition, to actually getting in and missing it all together because I work way too much, I can no longer remember when one thing ends and another begins. All I remember is working with no signs of the end in sight, my dad coping with my grandmother's death in really weird ways (like asking me to help format his computer a billion times because something is always wrong and fixing the Wii at four in the morning) and thinking I have to get that dream job. Looking back, it just all seems so insignificant, and yet, I wish I had the time to bathe in these moments that are supposed to mean something. I feel like I missed it all. In a blink of an eye, the time has passed. As my education is coming to an end, I have this ache in the pits of my stomach. The one where you feel like you should've done something differently, not knowing what should've been different, but just something, anything.

I feel like even after weeks of "slowing down" I'm still trying to catch up with all that has happened. If I were a doctor, I would prescribe a bottle of Pepto Bismol for the symbolic upset stomach for life's never ending events.

Update on website

As it turns out, the pages of my agenda were sticking together and the storyboard deadline is actually one more week away! You have no idea how relieved I am, there was no way any of that would have been finished in time. Anyways, so I have the main character/ mascot for my site basically complete, although i always can make some more refinements...

Here is a sneak peak :)

This is actually cut out from one of my pages that I have so far. Where, I would not say now, but when it is finished you shall all see :) I have the basic template setup already, but there are still some minor details here and there to be fixed and figured out. My main final intention however, is after that is done with, to incorporate that site with this blog... somehow... We'll see how that goes.

It's been an extremely extremely long week. Two midterms and superlong classes. I'm glad this week is over. And in case anyone is wondering, yes, my week ends on Thursday nights haha. And please don't go hatin' because I do work my ass off on Fridays at home too, just no commute time need. Thank goodness for that.

On a side note however, I have a question. Does iMovie not have a recording function, or does it just for some reason not detect my webcam? When I have more braincells/brainpower I will try to figure that out. When I do, it's gonna be a treat for sure!

Bean Website

Once again I am in the place of designing/ laying out the storyboard for the new site. It has proved to be a pain in the butt. I think my problem is just over thinking.

I hate design: when thinking too much is a crime!

And having said that, I have a literary research methods exam in a few hours.
Now I have to put my thinking cap back on... see you all on the other side!

First week of class

The first week of class is totally kicking my butt.. already!  Not because of the workload, not yet, but I still have no idea what I'm going to be doing about my capstone project yet! This is really bothering me, and causing me to worry, because usually I'm full of ideas as to what to do for my next project. Maybe this summer really wore me out, or I was slacking off a tad too much. Either way, I better come up with something soon. How do I find a project I can take on, and more importanly, tolerate for a full two semesters when my passion for fashion (yes, sounds corny) is wearing thin? Right now, I'm thinking fashion meets tech... somehow... Either I'm going to wait out on the starting of this semester's new media project, or start on my blogging comic. What's keeping me from starting is the possiblity of incorporating the comics into the new media class. That way, I can do something I'm passionate about for class. I'm still sitting on the fence about it.


On a lighter note, only weeks (but I like to think of it as days) until I get my new phone! Yeh yeh! I can't wait! Being the nerd that I am, I already have a list of apps I want to try out and download on the new phone, as thank goodness I will no longer be stuck with my crapberry! First time on an android phone, and I am uberly excited! I feel like I should type this entire last part in caps and end the sentences in multiple exclaimation marks. Ha Ha. Anyways, I'm just hoping the Evo 4G does not come out in GSM right after I get my desire, or I will be majorly pissed off.

That's it for now. More ranting and ravin' laterrrrrz! :)
(I feel like I should say something cool like 'Peace out' or 'C'est fini' like those youtube vloggers, but I have a feeling people will roll their eyes at it so I'll leave this until I find a creative way to say bye.)

End to the Year

I thought my work would've taken longer than it would. But since it didn't I would like to share the great news with all you out there, that I am officially done for this school year! By done, I mean digital design wise, but I still think its a start to the end.

So, since I'm officially done, I would like to share with you all three new additions to my portfolio. This project is based on three images, each of a different theme. We are given a certain predetermined phrase, and from that phrase, we are to create an image based on our interpretation.

1) Alternative Energy- Since the green movement, society has a larger concern over environmental matters, and our Fashion program always tries to do what we can to promote this. This theme was sort've expected, I think.

2) Abstract Expressionism- Another term that I expected, or something along the lines of art movements and such. Besides the brutal fashion history courses, we also focus on art history and their influences on different aspects of society, which explains this theme.

3) Nobel Savage- To be quite honest, I had to Wikipedia this. I'm still not sure whether there are more than one definition to this phrase, but with my image, I tried to portray the corruption of innocence by the "culturing" of society. How society tries to make its people noble, when in fact, it is merely the corruption of the natural innocence.

I would like to warn everyone however, because these are converted to jpeg images, the colouring is a bit off... yikes!

Web Design

As I mentioned before, I am going to post a lot of what-I-did-in-school posts, please bare with me until I actually get a life back. Good news is, I am going to Hong Kong for a month during the summer, so I'm sure there will be more interesting posts. Until then, here is another project I did, this time for Web-Design class. It wasn't a long project, and it was due in the midst of crazy-ness so I have to admit, I didn't do as much with it as I had planned before.

Please feel free to visit it:

Photoshoot from a While Back

Since I'm doing this post thing, I've decided to share a photoshoot that I did from a while back...
LONG while back. The model Leanne was amazing! I don't think I would've done it without her if she wasn't so quirky and cute. Anyways, there was lots to choose from, which usually isn't the case. I was actually  disappointed that we only needed three spreads, but here are the final spreads:
(yes, they did come in bigger sizes, but it would take too long to load here
you can click on them to see them a slight bigger though)

Opening Spread

Second Spread

Last Page

Blue Q Product Design

Here is another segment continuation from the series "Work I Do" haha? Yes, I just decided to name it, since I suspect a lot of upcoming posts on this topic. (Since as I mentioned before, school is life at this point)

So this one particular project is based on a company called Blue Q. They are known for their quirk designs, but have been criticized before for their over-packaged products. Especially during a time where the green-movement is a hit, or perhaps a fad (we have to wait a while longer to see for this one) consumers are often than not concerned with the packaging. The point here being, if it's nicely packaged enough, maybe consumers will think twice before throwing something out. The main product here is the totebag; its purpose being to promote one of the 3Rs we learned in grade school: REUSE. The key here is to not seem like a hippie and be all in your face about it.


This campaign is called "No Evil." Evil being the plastics, trash, or whatnot for the totebag.

Use No Evil: The totebag.

This is the sunglasses. See No Evil: Rose-coloured Sunglasses, the evil here being the world.

Hear No Evil: Noise Canceling Headphones.

Smell No Evil, Taste No Evil: Mint, Strawberry and Creme-sicle Flavored Toothpaste.

Book Cover

So here are one of the things I've done for Typography class

It's a book design for a book called Alone in the Kitchen with an Eggplant. Basically, it's a compilation of short stories on the joys or "adventures" on eating alone. Sounded depressing to begin with, and my sister said some stories actually made her sick, but I found it quite charming. (Maybe because I related a lot to some of the stories) Anyways, back to this project. The process work almost killed me, it started off with an overkill of purple (because of the eggplant) but it turned out better than I thought I would. As you may notice, I'm in my "sketchy" phase lately, and that translates into my work. Good or bad, you be the judge! Comments are welcomed! (Always)

This is the reinvented cover.

The opening spreads.

First page of text.

 Full text spread.

A Typical Day at School

Classes has once again started, and my sanity is starting to slip already. Some would ask, how exactly is this possible when you only have a maximum of two classes a day? Well these classes are not exactly pleasant. Here is a rundown of my two classes today.

First up, we have our ad design web segment. We are currently learning how to create webpages, which leads to our final assignment of a website creation of our choice. Believe it or not, when I found this class on my timetable, I was excited. What was not to love? Computers and what I thought would be learning new html codes. I was pleasantly excited until the following happened:

1. Turns out we will not be doing anything to do with coding, besides the times when we see it during the split mode in Dreamweaver. 
2. We will not be doing anything to do with Flash.
3.  Tutorials on how to do anything takes way too long for it to be comfortable

This was very disappointing indeed. [ Insert sad face here] But it was awesome to learn all those terms, since those are the parts I usually tuned out of before. Interesting how much you think you know until you run into everything you don't.

A little background information on why this is the case. I'm not being sexist (and can you be when you're discussing about your own sex?) But our program consists of mostly females. Being a person who grew up with mostly male friends, this is extremely hard. From going to discussions regarding StarCraft strategies, to which shade of blond better compliments your skin tone, often I would feel like I was on a different planet all together. However, it was only lately that I came to the conclusion that an overdose of estrogen and computers do not mix!!! Overall, it was a painful experience.

That mop looking thing is me dying on the floor.

For this semester's liberal elective, I thought it would be interesting to take a philosophy course. Little did I know, it was way more than I expected. This course is on one of my favorite subjects of all times: Sex and Love. We were introduced to the course, with the promise of Plato's Symposium. I was once again excited. I should have seen this as a red flashing sign of trouble. After two courses of introductions I was happily carrying my copy of Symposium to class, imagining our good times together in class. This is what actually happened:

We started off with a poem about a malt that was eaten by a rat, that was scared by a cat, who in turn worried by a dog because he was thrown by a cow? who apparently had a crumpled horn. It was milked by a forlorn maid, who married a lad by a priest who was bald?!!
This prof had not once ceased to surprise me. especially when he asked the question. So why was the maiden forlorn?  After many attempts from students, we learn that the maiden was indeed sad because she had to marry a broke guy because they had sex and was pregnant out of wed?! Wow.. totally not what I expected to hear.

This poem was an example of how, with everything relating to one another, it was easier to remember. I had to admit, this actually made sense, since I'm known for my lack of memory. I was revved up and ready to go. Symposium here I come!

Then... I knew it was trouble when he asked us: "Did I tell you guys the story about the Three Little Pigs?" I have to say, never in my life have I seen such a lively performance of the Three Little Pigs. With many "chinny chin chins" later, and the pigs being called %$&$%^%$ stubborn, class was over (poor wolf?). This was when I realized not once have we even mentioned Plato.

The lesson of the day here then is: never have high expectations.

To Template or not to.. Template?

After surfing the world of Blogger today, I have realized that during this time, I have yet to do something creative to this blog. This is surprising since usually, once I get started on a project, I will break it down and play with it until there is nothing left to do. This time however, I realized that I have no even deviated from the original template. This is very strange. I wanted something done, just SOMETHING! I was even desperate enough to contemplate the idea of installing a third party template. As I browsed through the different selections of templates, I snapped out of my lazy phase and finally realized why I never used templates to begin with. This being the fact that I am an annoyingly difficult to please perfectionist. Every template I considered had a "flaw" of some sort. This made me feel very uneasy and eliminated the idea of borrowing a template to use as my own.

This term at school, a section focuses on the web-based component of advertising. Hopefully, this will spark some creativity and motivation in me. Until then, I shall leave this blog as is. Sorry for the disappointment people. And now since I got all this frustration off my chest, I shall go to sleep and wake up in... FIVE HOURS FOR SCHOOL?!